Dear Evie,
You are sleeping right now and instead of doing my homework (which I'm behind on) I decided to write you a little note. Okay, you caught me. I'm procrastinating. Don't follow my example on this, by the way! I find it funny (and nice) that no matter how overwhelmed and stressed I get, I never think "If only I didn't have a baby" or think that its your fault I'm overwhelmed. In fact, it's almost the opposite. I think about how incredible it feels to know that the one truly important responsibility in my life is you! Seth comes in a close second. Heehee. It reminds me of the other day when you were sitting in your high chair eating breakfast. I was cleaning up the kitchen and making a "today's goals" list on the whiteboard. I was coming up with all these things like, reading my textbooks, writing on my novel, vacuuming, dishes, things like that and I felt like something was really missing and then I realized my most important goal of the day was you! So next to "do the dishes," I wrote, "love Evie." That was a very easy one to check off. In fact, I gave it two check marks. I do enjoy your nap times though. But don't get me wrong, its not because I need a break from you, its because I don't feel guilty doing other things like writing this, or homework, things like that. When I try to do them when you are awake, it is more difficult because you want my attention, but its more difficult because I want to give you my attention! I feel like while you are awake, I should spend every moment attending to you. I know that is pretty unreasonable and unpractical, but I think its a pretty good reason why the dishes don't get done consistently. I'm making this a short blurb because I really do need to start my homework while I have a quite moment without my conscience nagging me. I'll see you in about an hour! (Please be an hour...)
Mommy Micki
